Random Thoughts

People are wired differently, not all people are the same. We understand things differently, we have different opinions and beliefs. I just don’t know why people don’t understand it. Some people thinks that other people should understand it based on how they understand it. They just don’t get it, don’t they? We all have our own perspective on how we see life, on how we see the world we live in.

For you, you see life so colorful and beautiful but for others its plain black and white. Some people can’t see the colors you’re seeing now, they can’t find the beauty you can see. For some they can only see is the darkness and how cruel life is. We might have the same pair of eyes but it doesn’t mean it’s the same thing we see the world we live in.

You call it being sensitive, too shallow and yeah she/he just wants attention but have you thought maybe he/she is not just strong as you. Have you ever thought that maybe he/she is weak and vulnerable? Easily gets sad and hurts even for the simplest things. Maybe that person went through something that’s why he/she’s like that? Have you ever thought of that? or you just quickly judge and be annoyed?

Some maybe found their purpose to live this life, some are still searching for it. Searching for a meaning, searching for anything that will make them live the life. For some they just live their life just for the sole purpose of living it, nothing else.

We all have different opinions, we reflect on things differently, we understand life differently. We need is to respect what they believe how they see things and how they see life. Just respect and understand. Don’t be closed-minded like others.

Hello 2017!

Yay! Another year has ended and a new year has come. So many things happened last year, not just about my life but also around the world. Well, 2016 was not that good and a lot of people would agree to me but this year were claiming it! 2017 is going to be a lot better!

I have high hopes this year, I’m hoping this year is going to be a turnaround of last year. I have a lot of New Years resolution in mind but I’ll focus on what I really need to change. First is I want to be  more positive this year, this is going to be a challenge for me because I usually get nervous and scared about everything, literally everything. Also I easily over think and worry even the simplest things, I always have these scenarios in my head like “what if its wrong” , ” what if I fucked up” like those kind of thoughts. See? I’m not really an optimistic person but I’ll try to change that , Bit by bit, step by step. Hopefully I’ll succeed.

Second is I’ll push myself to better and be more confident. I’m like a scared rat, scared to try new things, scared to take a risk. I’m that kind of person that easily get contented with what I have and I want to change that.  I want to push myself to be better, things might get hard but I should try, as what they say “There’s no harm in trying” right? At least you tried. No more feeling anxious and scared when there’s a new opportunity in front of me. I want to trust myself more, that if I work hard and set my mind to it, I’ll achieve what I want to achieve. In order to achieve this, I need to do my first resolution. I can’t be better and confident if I’m a pessimist. These first two  are my main resolutions this year, and hopefully I really hope that I can do it!

Aside from this two I also have some other resolutions.

  • SAVE MONEY!! (I suck at this) I usually spend my money on concerts, food and band merchandise and hopefully this year I’ll learn to spend my money more wisely. By the way I’m doing the 52-weeks Money Challenge. I hope I can finish it and wont open the piggy bank before the challenge ends. LOL
  • EXERCISE AND DIET! Every year this one is part of my New Years resolution but I always fail. Well, who doesn’t love food? I love eating and eating and eating but lazy to exercise and burn it. This year I’ll try to hit the gym maybe? LOL or at least Jog outside.

So far my year started well, I have a new job! Yay! I’ll start next week and hoping for the best. I hope this is the turnaround that I’m praying. Good luck to me!

Another new whole year to spend, another challenges and success that will change us for the better. Just pray and hope for the best! Remember that nothing is impossible if you work hard for it and always trust yourself.

So you, what are your New Years resolution? Share them, I’m interested and lets all do it together!

Happy New Year everyone! x





2016, What can I say? Its been a roller coaster and challenging year.

My 2016 started good,  I was excited and ready for what the year and life will offer.

The first few months was good, everything was fine and full of laughter. I met new people and it was all good. People say “Life changes in a snap” and “Life changes in a blink of an eye” and it’s actually true, everything suddenly change and you wont have a choice but to accept it and move on.

One of the challenges I faced during this year is me being questioned as person and as a friend. You know what sucks about this is I trusted this people, I valued them and treated them as a friend and sadly I think they don’t feel the same thing. I know to myself that I didn’t do anything wrong and what I did is to just keep my mouth shut even though they kept throwing insults. I guess that’s just how you handle difficult people, you just let them and eventually they’ll get tired of it.The thing is I always try to see the best in people and easily trust them and in the end I always end up disappointed.

It sucks when you’re treated like a garbage, they can easily throw you out after all the things you’ve done. I did everything and worked hard for it and still people can’t appreciate it and in just a snap they no longer want you and you know yourself you don’t deserve it. I fought for it because I know I don’t deserve to be treated that way. I decided to end it all and move on and you know you did the right choice. I can’t be with people who just can’t appreciate and value you.

Out of everything bad happened during this year, I’m still grateful because I learned a lot of lessons and use the experience as a motivation to move forward. I have new good friends that stood beside me and I know I can trust. To my best friend that keeps on motivating me even on my lowest point, I know you’re busy but still manage to reply to my text message. You don’t have idea how happy I am that I met you and you helped me a lot in ways you couldn’t imagine.  To the new people I met, I’m really grateful to know every single of you, maybe we all just met in a wrong time and wrong place? Still I hope the best for all of us and hope to see you around!

2016 is an  extreme roller coaster ride, I had my ups and downs that I thought I can’t face. This year is actually my most challenging year so far.

As what Jay Starret wrote:

” I’ve learned that there are many rough moments in life, ones that will either make or break you. Moments that will create the person you become. With every rejection or “failure” comes knowledge and wisdom. The only time the word failure comes into play is when you quit. Either you “win or learn”.

Use your bad experiences as a motivation, to keep going and be a better person. If you’ll let that experience eat your motivation you’ll always end up with just the thoughts of “What-ifs” and regrets. Sometimes its hard and it will take time but don’t be stuck. Dont stop trying and time will come you’ll reach it. Also, know your worth, don’t let anyone else decide what you deserve and not. Always remember just to be yourself, be kind and motivated.

” I’ve learned that there are many rough moments in life, ones that will either make or break you. Moments that will create the person you become. With every rejection or “failure” comes knowledge and wisdom. The only time the word failure comes into play is when you quit. Either you “win or learn”. I will never stop trying to pursue my goals.

Along the way, there is something I never forget, to be myself. The key to life is being true to yourself and spreading love to everyone. Just like Marianna Williamson once said, “As we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give others permission to do the same”. 

Be Yourself, Stay Humble, & Smile “

By: Jay Starrett

Just want to share this to everyone, I read this a couple of times when I was feeling down and kinda not sure of whats happening around me. It was a terrible week and I never felt so anxious and down but reading this helped me, it gave me motivation and rethink everything. Yes they are right, it’s about perspective on how are we going to see and reflect to the bad situations we encounter. I love the message of it,  we can’t avoid failure and rejection cause it’s already part of our lives but the only thing that we will change it on how are we going to accept it. We cant let those failures and rejection to bring us down but we need those to make ourselves a better person. The guy who wrote this is so optimistic and happy, I just want to be like him. To stop worrying and just be positive about everything that is happening to me and still doesn’t  forget what goals I want to achieve in life.


Sometimes we all need is to see a spark that will change things, our perspective, our mood. Life is tough and hard,sometimes you just have to let go of certain situations that aren’t in your control. That spark, even a small spark will give us hope that things might change for the better,tomorrow isn’t always better but it will be eventually. You’re so close to letting go of the ledge you’re holding onto so desperately but there’s just one thing that keeps you hanging on. We hold on to that spark and it will make keep us going, something that keep us to go forward.


I don’t know why every time I think about my future I feel weird and scared. I don’t know what to think. of course I have my dreams,I want to live somewhere, I want to happy with my love ones and be successful and be whatever they want me to be. But the thing is I don’t know if I can, I hate to expect that my future is what I’m expecting. Life is unpredictable and i don’t know what to expect from it. I’m so pessimistic yeah I just need to be positive But its so hard to think about those future I have in my head when I don’t know If I can achieve them. I’m so weak and I don’t know if I can face more things in life. There are tons of stuff I need to face and life is tough and I wont achieve them so easy but I don’t know if Ill able to handle more pain and hardships life will bring.Yes I just need to be positive and set my goals straight but its hard when negativity and sadness eating you up.Its not easy but I’m still trying.


Originally posted November 2 2015 via Tumblr (X)


People say “ What you can get on attending concerts? You’re wasting money!” , “Why not watch it on YouTube, you’ll not pay for it”, “Why go to a concert if your ticket is not VIP or if you’re not close enough to see them or not even a chance to meet them”, “You can buy a lot of stuff on those money you spent on concerts”

Honestly Yes, those stuff makes sense. I think about them all the time but I still attend concerts. But concerts are different! Concerts will make you forget about everything, for hours it will make you forget whatever life you have, the shitty life and world we live in. It will make you feel that its good to be alive for a moment, everything is different. It will transport you to place where you can just enjoy your surrounding, the live music, the lights and everything. Even after the concert, it will give a certain happiness that no one can steal from you. A memory that will make you smile everytime you remember or hear their music. Maybe for you its like wasting money but for us its not.

I might be spending so much money for these concerts but atleast it makes me happy, I enjoy every cents I spent on their music. If you enjoy listening to music, concerts are way more better! Once you attend a good concert, you wont stop attending one, I’m telling you!

Originally posted October 30 2015 via Tumblr (X)

If I’ve learned anything from life, it’s that sometimes, the darkest times can bring us to the brightest places. I’ve learned that the most toxic people can teach us the most important lessons, that our most painful struggles can grant us the most necessary growth, and that the most heartbreaking losses of friendship and love can make room for the most wonderful people. I’ve learned that what seems like a curse in the moment can actually be a blessing, and that what seems like the end of the road is actually just the discovery that we are meant to travel down a different path. I’ve learned that no matter how difficult things seem, there is always hope. And I’ve learned that no matter how powerless we feel or how horrible things seem, we can’t give up. We have to keep going. Even when it’s scary, even when all of our strength seems gone, we have to keep picking ourselves back up and moving forward, because whatever we’re battling in the moment, it will pass, and we will make it through. We’ve made it this far. We can make it through whatever comes next.